Wow, haven't updated in weeks

I will make this short cuz alcohol is in meh but shhhhh lmao

Sean redid my whole site and I absolutely adore it

THANKS SEAN!

I really wanna go to Kelly Clarkson on the 20th but I have NO ride and NO money and NO ticketts >< Dammit!

Oh well, Lots of things have happened since my last update

But I don't wanna do it now so I will tell ya tommorow, maybe lmao

Doing a lot better this week

THANK GOD

Well, I am almost through with summer school, my last day is Tuesday, super excited!

I'm going to Table Rock Lake and going camping next thursday through sunday and I am taking Kalli with me. It's going to be a fucking blast, I soooo can not wait! I need to tan though, like desperatly! lol

Well, if I pass summer school, which I am, I get my truck! I am so excited, everyone is saying, you're gunna be a hottay in that thing, I'm like, I'm a hottay now, lol jk

But yeah, not much to talk about so I will let ya go with some words of wisdom...

Boom Boom huck JAM!

(Don't ask)

ILU GUYS!

Ian

Omg, I am soooo overdue for an entry in here

Wow, this past week has been, well, crazy

I made 2 A's on two tests last friday so I was really happy about that. 4th of July was a bit of a drag, nothing really happened and it rained. I did go to Sam's house though, we luanched fireworks and hung out, I always have so much fun with her, We are attached at the hip nowa days lol. Sean, Jessica, Ashlee, and Amy were all there. We played bull shit and I kicked all their asses. It was awesome

Tuesday,

John came over, and I washed and cleaned inside and out of his Mustang, sometimes, it's not pretty but yeah, He is letting me drive now, which is super cool, I love driving that car it's alot of fun, But as much as I ask him to drive it, I'm not using him. But anyway, we drove out and he showed me his new house, omg it's soooo gorgous. Then we went to the Bread Company and met up with Colin....

It was so awesome to see Colin agian, I haven't seen him in a while and somehow, he got even cuter, I really hope some day Colin and I have a chance at dating, but I dunno, he seems pretty attached to the other guy he is gradually getting closer to, Which sucks for me... It's okay though, as much as I like him, I want to see him as happy as he can. Which today is not that day becuase he is suffering from the pain of getting his wisdom teeth pulled, I hope he feels better soon! Colin if you're reading this, we need to hang out~

Wednesday was boring, I came home from school and pretty much slept all day, nothing fun really happened,

Thursday, I got home and layed out on the deck and tanned, John came over and got his pool sticks then went to a movie with Kalli,

Pete my guitar guy came and gave me my lesson, it was cool, he really wanted to ride the pocket bike, lmao

Then later after having kind of a bad day I was talking to Sean on AIM and he was being a total asshole, And I was sooooooo pissed I couldn't take it anymore so I just went to bed.

Today, I came home and fell asleep, I woke up to my phone ringing and guess who it was... right... Sean, he was like oh hey what's up? I was shocked that he actually had the nerve and the balls to call me after what he had said to me. Apparently he thinks we are cool or something, but he shouldn't be so sure of himself.

I also had a mental break down becuase a lot of things just built up and I just exploded, I had my spell of screaming and crying and I am great now, (I don't mean this to scare anyone, everyone has to blow steam sometime)

So that is pretty much that, I am just basically relazing tonight unless someone wants to do anything, but yeah, I will post agian soon

Talk to you guys later~

Ian

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Hey guys!

I am in such a good mood today!

Today was great,

Sean came over after school and we hung out for a while and we played chutes and ladders and it brought back many child hood memories it also made me remember that any fucking game I play with him he ALWAYS wins! Except pool, I got him on that one, lmao

But then Tiffany and Shelby Ashlee and Micheal came over and we went swimmin

Then Sam and John showed up and we played bull shit! Trust me, if you want to have a roaring good time play bull shit with me! lol

Well anyways, I told the guy how I feel about him and I am still kinda wondering what he is thinking, who knows where this might lead I hope I at least get a chance though.

And today, I found out how much six flags is  rip off! lmao~

Micheal works there and we decided to go tommorow and we were trying to figure out how much everything was, Micheal ended up calling sic flags like 3 times and then we called agian and he handed the phone to Shelby and was like if that girl heres my voice agian she might not even answer anymore lol

So yeah, I'm not gunna go though, I decided I am gunna get my hair trimmed and get it re-colored, light brown with bleach blonde highlights!~ WOO WOO SMOKIN HOT!

LOL

I am such a loser, oh well, it's all good

Omg, I was in the pool for so long today if anyone says let's go swimmin, I might castrate them! lol just kiddin, but seriously

Okay this one is for the ppl who think my house is fucking Ponderosa!

I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING SALAD BAR!

I DON'T HAVE A GREEN SIGN THAT SAYS, CHEAP FOOD HERE!

ALL I HAVE IS MY PICKLES AND STOP EATING THEM DAMMIT!

lmao jk, but seriously

Okay, I am done

Later guys!

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Wow, this week has been very...interesting

I can't go into much detial, but I can tell you that my heart is pulsing so hard it is almost out of my chest.

I feel like I did when I was with the last love of my life. This can't be love, it's impossible!

I have only known this person for a month or so and already I am getting these types of feelings. I don't know if I should be scared or not, I am just basically along for the ride and seeing where this road takes me. My mind is so screwed right now that I can barely stand to look in the mirror and myself.

I don't know what the hell is going on and I don't know what the hell I am doing. I feel so helpless, someone please give me a sign on what I should do next. It is so confusing, this person has told me so much in very little time. I can't say who it is, but I can tell you this, they are worth fighting for, I have only known this indivudual for a short time. But I can tell that he has found a place in my heart and is staying there, or maybe I just want to think that. I hope that's what it is, I can't say I love them, I can however say I care about this person a great deal.

I lay in bed at night, thinking about him untill my eyes close, it's soo weird, something about him just get's me and makes me melt. I don't know what it is but good lord, I really like it. Please, someone, help me! I feel like I am doing the wrong thing and I need some good advice.

You know, when you think about love, you think about curling up into your lovers arms and looking into their eyes and just holding that moment, I thought I could only ever feel that way about John. I guess I was totally wrong, and I am just thrown off by all this

So that's my week in a nutshell I guess, this all happened and my brother's 13th birthday is tommorow, right now, I need a good friend

So please, won't you reach out

Oh yes, one more thing,

If you are reading this, I mean every word (you know who you are)